I’ve always liked to think of myself as someone who is willing to take a leap in life, but you can’t deny that some leaps are harder than others. This is how I came to decide to take a hard leap.
For the last year or so, I’ve been really reassessing my career choice in life. Don’t get me wrong, I love working as a writer, and I know that some part of my career will always revolve around writing in some way. But lately I’ve just been feeling like it’s not enough for me. Being a writer is fun, but I’m comfortable and maybe even a little bored. My work keeps me busy, but it rarely challenges or excites me the way that it used to.
It’s not about the place I’m working, or the people I’m working with. I love working for Stay At Home Mum, and the ladies and gents that I’m working with are not only hilarious, but dedicated too and some of the best minds in the industry (in my eyes). It’s more about the fact that I don’t know if I can spend years writing content that distracts and entertains. I feel that I want something more.
So, I’ve decided to become a teacher.
Today is the official start of my career as it’s the official start of the semester. This week I’ll be doubling down after work and on my days off to study to become a primary school educator. My textbooks have arrived, my calendar is on point. I’m ready.
Except that I’m 100% terrified. The idea that in a few short years I could be responsible for laying the educational foundation for kids is something that both scares me, and excites me. I love education, I’ve always loved it, but for some reason before now I never wanted to be involved in it. Now I see that I just had to do other things first, to experience other things, before it was something I was able to embark on.
So yeah, I’m scared out of my mind, but I’m not giving up. I remember when I graduated from my first degree, when I got that little piece of paper that qualified me to work as a writer, I was just as scared. I thought to myself: What happens if I never become a writer? What happens if I don’t succeed? There was a legitimate fear there. Lots of people who study in creative fields never realise their career goals, for a wide range of reasons. I was lucky enough to be in situations where I was able to pursue them, lucky to have the support of those around me. And I was lucky, just 2 years into my ‘real’ career, to find an amazingly welcoming employer who encouraged me to reach my true potential as a writer.
But just because I had all those things, doesn’t mean I would be happy forever.
Life is all about evolution. If people didn’t evolve to match their hopes and their circumstances, we wouldn’t be here as we are today. To be honest, I am scared about being a teacher, and I don’t know how it will all work out. But I’ve got a few years of study to figure it out, and to evolve to match my new circumstances.
Until then, I’ll still be here, blogging!
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